new orleans was just what i needed, a break from reality that i, arguably, deserved. i ate my personal weight in fried foods, pralines, and seafood. pants are now a struggle but that's ok. i love wandering around other cities and finding quiet moments when life seems simple and beautiful. i apologize that i can't find a better way to describe how i feel without resorting to personal ads-like platitudes. i miss the smell of honeysuckle with every breeze. i miss jazz on street corners, worn-down music halls, and men singing sam cooke songs at 2am on the uneven brick sidewalks. i even miss the dense humid air. how do i miss something i only knew for a little bit? this is a question i often ask myself in regards to various things in my life. i'm starting to think i need newer things to miss.

anyways, my break is over. tomorrow i start peds. last rotation of the year. soon 3rd year will be over and 4th year begins. it simultaneously feels like i want everything to be over but at the same time, i need more time to figure it out.