no beating around the bush, i'm so burnt out. it's starting to get to me. i was sick for about a week and it was almost a relief because as miserable as i was it took my mind off of worrying and abstractions that i have no logical way of addressing. i've been kind of holed up in my apt in my free time, trying to get myself to be productive or leave and neither seems to get done. anyways, i realize this now and i figure i should do something about this. my options are that things can only get better or worse and i'm trying to push myself towards better.
but it's hard.
