looking for

i think i have internalized george bailey from it's a wonderful life as my ideal man. neurotic, emotionally extreme, dependable yet occasionally erratic, idealistic but constantly having his aspirations crushed by social responsibility. attractive but also a little funny-looking. tall.

strike that: i have internalized george bailey as a model for myself. except for the attractive and/or tall part. funny-looking i got down.

recap

all the scowling i've done this year is really starting to hurt my face.

soooo stressed. i hate the feeling of finishing something and feeling like i fucked up. this is an indirect wish that i didn't fuck up so much. jesus.